I wonder?

I sometimes wonder if my boys know how much I love them. I don't think they do. I don't think they can. Until they are parents I don't think they can imagine the amount of love one feels for their children. I wonder if the older two know how much I miss them, really miss them? I wonder if they realize I've never lived more then 15 minutes from my own mom?  I wonder if they realize how far away they seem? I wonder if Chase knows when he's running and we can't be there that I watch the clock and cheer like a crazy woman? I wonder if Kohl knows that I will do the same when track starts? I wonder if the little boys know how long the school day seems to me? How I can't wait to hear about their day? I wonder if they all know they are the first thing I think about in the morning and the last thing I think of as I drift to sleep? I wonder if they know how many prayers I pray for them? I wonder if they know how proud I am of them? I wonder if they know that even when they make mistakes I am proud of them? I am proud of the way they handle themselves when faced with diversity and tough times, do they know? Do they know how much the sound of their voices means to me, and the sound of their laughs? Do they know that when I get a text or phone call not only do my lips smile but so does my heart? When they hurt, are scared, sad or unsure I feel it ten fold, and wish I could take it away, do they know? Do they know that when they are happy I am too? I LOVE their hugs and LOVE when I hear I love you, do they know?  Do they know my love is endless and not able to be measured, do they understand unconditional love? They can come to me with anything, do they know that? Do they know? I wonder? I think my boys know how much I love them, I hope if there is one thing in this world they know it's how much they are loved. I wonder if they understand the depth? I wonder.....
Thank you God for blessing me immensely.