It been a little over a year since I have ran. I won't bore you with the whys, it just has been. It's so easy to quit, so hard to restart. I am trying to restart...I miss it. I realized this week that I miss it for more reasons then I thought. I have never ran to win a race I run for the fun of it, the health of it, the joy of it the camaraderie and so I can write these blogs! I haven't been able to write a blog, it just wouldn't come to me. On a run this week it was like an "a-ha" moment. Then tonight I wanted to sit down a write a blog!
Carson has run with me a couple times this week, well one time with me and one time we were in the same park :) Carson was pushing me, I wanted to be able to at least see him, which meant I couldn't quit and I had to go a little quicker pace then I probably would have. As I felt a little burn in my chest and could hear myself breathing ( I hate that by the way) a bit of soreness in my legs and a blister blooming the sweat pouring, my throat drying all I could think was "this is perfect". I am so blessed and happy. God is always with me, but sometimes He has to make me sweat, burn and blister to realize how blessed. I love watching our boys do so many different things, the things He is providing. He always provides. I recently have enjoyed watching Kaden smile as he got a kiss from a dolphin, Carson as we parasailed for the first time, Chase as he plays hockey and Kohl as he laughs and brightens a room. These were the things I was thinking about tonight as we were running, then I see Carson, and I think these boys inspire me to be better, to do better, but I am very content with being in last place. The view is better from there for me. God's grace is enough, my family is enough, I have already won.
Thank you God for blessing my immensely.
